Relationships used to be the area of my life where I experienced the greatest confusion and pain. I often felt alone, even among friends—sad while smiling, pretending to be cool while feeling deeply hurt. Looking back, I see now that I wasn’t just disconnected from others; I was disconnected from myself. That self-rejection and inner emptiness eventually led me to hit rock bottom and make drastic changes.

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I stepped away from the life I had built—the career, the friendships, the familiar structures—and began searching for something deeper. I explored spirituality, psychology, and art, but it was somatic practices and Somatic Experiencing that helped me make sense of my struggles in a way I hadn't before. I started to see how much of what felt like "just the way I am" was actually CPTSD—patterns shaped by early relational wounds and a nervous system wired for survival rather than connection. I also learned that healing isn’t about willpower alone—it requires time, patience, and a deep trust in the body’s wisdom.

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As I slowly began to soften, listen, and integrate what had been buried for so long, my relationship with myself—and with others—started to shift. Healing has been a humbling journey, and while I’ve experienced profound transformation and deep gratitude, I also know I’m not "done"—healing is an ongoing process, a continuous unfolding.

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I remain deeply curious about the complexity of humans and their relationships—our connection to ourselves, to each other, and to nature—and how trauma and wounding shape these bonds, often in ways we don’t consciously realize. I now also know that when trauma is integrated, it can become a source of deep strength—leading to greater resilience, empathy, and a more authentic, heart-centered way of relating to life. Even more, I feel deeply grateful to accompany others on their own journeys toward a greater sense of aliveness, deeper connection, and inner freedom.